2.2.07
For the next few days, please don't:

-tell me I played well. I know people mean well when they say this, but please, don't.
-leave me hanging there with nothing to do or nothing happy to think about. I would end up thinking about what jiaolian said.
-tell me not to cry. Especially don't say it in chinese. Reverse psychology works at times. It makes me want to cry even more.

I realised how emotions can change within a minute. One moment I will feel happy. I can still laugh a lot and talk like any happy person should. The next moment is a different story.

To my seniors, regardless of whether any of you will read this or not, I just want to say that you don't need a trophy to spell out how great each and everyone of you are. All of you have worked harder than anything for this competition and really, for today's match, we really fought our hearts out. We were against shuqun after all, and hey, we did win one set and we didn't get thrashed. Maybe that's something we shouldn't feel too bad about.

Thankyou, for teaching me how to serve and spike and all that when I was in sec 1. It was because of all of you that I really learnt. Thankyou, for helping me to jie1 all the balls that I should jie1 on court but don't dare to. Thankyou, for being patient and forgiving cos I don't play very well and compared to you I'm nothing. And sorry, I didn't have a chance to 'pay' you all back by helping to get into nationals. Continue to work hard and never give up because I'm sure all of you will pride in volleyball in JC!

Okay I must think of funny/happier things now!

-this little girl came up to me when we were da3 fang-ing and said "eh you from 207 ah?" I took a while to realise she was yixian's sister. And what the hell! She asked me that question because she thought I was lynn cheng. I am insulted.

-Grace was telling us about someone breaking 3 "lab tops" during chemistry. In my mind, I was thinking of correcting it to test tubes but for some strange reason I opened my mouth and said that they were called "tube tops"

-I laughed and was generally happy during the bus ride home with hsiuchin and grace
Friday, February 02, 2007

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